The Hour of Long Shadows

I  am not a person of spikey, peaky, up or down emotions. In other words,
I don't think I'm moody, at least I've never been accused of it.  Within
 life's normal circumstances, I usually feel content and happy BUT there
 is one exception that no one has ever noticed nor have I ever talked about
 it and here I am, devulging it to all bloggieland. (We tend
to get bold when we are talking to a screen.)

This is what I have noticed.  In the summer hour,
 before the sun is setting, when it casts long shadows, an extreme sadness
rushes into the pit of my sttomach, like a home sick feeling for someone
or some place. Weather conditions always have to be the same; no wind,
warm, the feeling of stillness in the world and I'm looking at long shadows.

All of the conditions have to be there, for this sad feeling to occur, so it
isn't something that happens with regularity BUT it has been with me
my whole life.

Ken is a trusted psychic I've known for a long time and I've used his
ability mostly as a medical intuitive. He has never been wrong and his
findings can always be proven correct with western medical testing as
x-rays, etc.  During one session with him, I mentioned this "long shadow"
 occurance. Ken said, "Just a minute," as he went into his little trance or
the thing that he does.

This is what he said.  In a past life, when the weather
conditions were exactly as I mentioned, I watched my four sons be
 executed.

Yes, I do know I have been reincarnated........way too many times
to ever count and I also know many people think it's hogwash.
Whatever. It is just my little true story.

So, knowing this, do I still have the sad feeling during the perfect
condition of the long shadows?  Yes I do BUT there is now a
feeling of understanding  and........I know this sounds silly........
also a feeling of forgiveness associated with it.
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Have you ever experienced past life feelings that you would 
like to share? 

Sequel and Sequel to Two Souls on Their Journey

I promised a sequel. Daryl and I stayed married 25 years with much separation during the latter half. I later found out he was a full-blown Narcissist and it wasn't all work that kept him away from home. At that time it was just called "womanizing" or "a man thing" because the word Narcissist from mythology, wasn't coined for personality disorders until the 1980's.

Marilyn and Harvey split about the same time. They had their issues too, because if you recall, Marilyn's plight came about because he didn't want to be married. Daryl was always kind to me and many Narcissists need the respectability of a family and their secret lives too. We all tried to be friendly, not buddies, but civil friends for our families and what had been the "good years."

My advice to any woman who is smacked in the face by a Narcissist's secret escapades is: "Never allow yourself to become an extension of a man in the first place." Develop your own talents and a strength will follow. I had made the dance world my life when I was left alone for long periods. I had also become interested in politics and never stopped my quest for knowledge. I raised my four kids but never made them the center of my Universe. I allowed them to follow their own path.

Marilyn and I stuck together as friends throughout everything, as spirituality became our main focus of life. We both remarried and had happy and serene lives, lacking only the robust partying of youth.

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A sequel to the sequel:

If you've been following my blog, you may have read about Ken, the medical intuitive and psychic who I think is as gifted as Edgar Cayce.

If you recall, it felt entirely right to take Marilyn into my home. Laughter came so easy to us and we could talk and talk for hours. We have never, in fifty years, felt any displeasure with the other, it's always love. I asked Ken for a few examples of our past lives together. This is what he said.

Ken took a moment to trance into us. (We were on the phone. I have regular appointments with Ken, but we've never met in person.) I'd never mentioned Marilyn to him before. He came out of the first trance laughing because he found Marilyn and me laughing and laughing. This incarnation was in the 17 hundreds in France when we were both men and in prison for fighting against the regime. Seeing movies of the prisons of that period, I wonder what we had to laugh about but we were young rebels who would no doubt laugh and die for a cause.

Another incarnation about the 1820's, Marilyn and I were both women going West in a wagon train. We became close friends during the drive and settled with our families as neighbors upon our destination. We were visiting at one house when attacked by Indians and Marilyn was hit with an arrow. She died in my arms and I lost my zest for life without her.

Marilyn and I have had hundreds of lives together, as have all of us but I'll leave it at that because I realize it's a subject many would like to sweep under the rug.

Adios my bloggy friends and remember "Trust the Universe."

This clip is of Shirley Temple and Buddy Ebsen dancing. Later in life, Buddy played Jed Clappert in the "Beverly Hillybillies." Call me weird, but I've always found Buddy my idea of one sexy dude.

Souls That Search

Caution: If you are sensitive to words like reincarnation, dogma, and spiritual do not enter here. I'll be back with lighter subjects shortly. Manzanita

I am honored to have a man called Ken as my medical and spiritual adviser. He has been gifted for this incarnation, with the same blessings as had been given to Edgar Cayce. He is a humble man. Just knowing him makes me a better and grateful person. I look forward to our conversations with a child-like anticipation and I always feel I've taken one step more toward my final destination.

Good health is foremost in seeking our spiritual path. Ken helps me. He can look into my body and follow my blood, see the toxins and watch if my organs are ticking in sync. He doesn't touch. He can do it by phone or whatever. We live in a troubled, toxic world and our bodies were made for being sustained by natural foods. I admit it's a problem to cure disease and heal naturally but it can be done. If you need proof, look at me. I'm eighty and never followed the allopathic way.

I try to limit my conversations with Ken to every eight weeks. That is an exercise in patience because I would like to talk to him every day. After the medical advice is established, I turn to my favorite subject, reincarnation.

My one question last conversation was, "Why do I see so many people who are wasting their incarnations?" We talked about it at length and I may have already known the answers but it was comforting to hear Ken's words. He said, "It's the way the path to spirituality works. It's why we've all had countless, countless, countless incarnations and it's often confused with dogma. To bring it into factual existence, think of the people who spend their lives shopping, or pursing a business, or being a Narcissistic romeo, just raising a family, or winning beauty pageants. They're born and they die and that is what is in between. They reincarnate for say twenty times (who knows the exact number) and finally, one incarnation they begin to question. They are tired of shopping, business, beauty or sex and they begin to ask why they are really here. Now they can begin the spiritual quest to the satisfaction of their soul.

We mostly do our searching in silence but it's comforting to discuss our paths with other connected souls. I respect where everyone is on their own path and if you have entered into this post, I know you are respecting mine.

As an enlightened Monk, Father Joseph Stendhal-Ross, of this incarnation said, "It's the experience and not the dogma, that we are here to learn."